Im still in awe from the entire essence of “An Intimate Night with Malcolm-Jamal Warner”! My firm was obtained to provide various services and really… these types of opportunities allow me to watch and reflect … and take on pivotal moments and key milestones that will make me a better business woman… a better service provider… heck…. a better me all by myself. I did write about the event itself; scroll to the bottom! BUT FOR NOW… I just can’t get this man OUT MY SPIRIT!
Now I am not BY ANY MEANS a groupie, a wannabe, a person that is thirsty for a certain type of attention and definitely has not ever been celebrity struck. I am a worker…period! I do my job and I think… YEP… ONE OF THE BEST!!!! I am stating this because this man I met briefly… watched from afar… listened to… ran around for…KEPT ME UP ALL NIGHT!
I was moved, inspired, stimulated and felt feelings that were covered, hidden, protected, tamed but NOW UNLEASHED! You have me listening to smooth jazz sippin on DAMA TEQUILA.
WHO IS THIS MAN? Theo from “The Cosby’s”, still the little boy acting and playing a role? Where did HE GO?
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN I WANT MORE!
This man has moved me and I want to know why. Was it his non-swaggered but cool, smooth, laid back commanding without EVEN saying a word mannerisms? Was it the way he sat and wrapped his being around and within debonairness as he is just he? Was it the way he was so gracious and courteous to EVERYONE yet if he needed to could and would check you but you would still take it as a compliment because of his charm? WHAT WAS IT? WHAT IS IT?
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN I NEED MORE!
Could it have been when I first turned around and he was in back of me and we looked right at each other and THAT LOOK, THAT SMILE, ripped through every layer of walls and hit a core very few ever see? IN MY MIND..Did he expose the essence of KIMI and who I am, I don’t want all to see, that is saved for THE ONE to experience- YEP, TOTALLY EXPEREINCE ME? Who is he that has me standing in a full room transparent, naked, real, even for a second that yep… scared me for if you knew who I AM you could hurt me, steal from me, rape me, destroy me; IN MY MIND… so I PROTECT ME! WHO IS THIS MAN? I WANT TO KNOW! I HAVE TO KNOW!
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN I HAVE TO HAVE MORE!
Creating promotional pieces for this event I had to watch some of his videos and yep I seen he touched on sexuality and sensuality BUT a part of me was like “That’s cute Theo! But damn, that one was in the pocket!” Then I moved on UNTIL LAST NIGHT!
LAST NIGHT I did not know who I was seeing; a worldly man experienced in sophistication; a dark gorgeous yet cool corny little boy, a teacher and lecturer of erotically sexual arousing foreplay? WHO WAS THIS MAN? WHY ARE YOU PLAYING?
I felt at first like what are these thoughts in my head about this little boy. THIS IS SO WRONG ON SO MANY LEVELS…LOL. The visu-al…ities exploding in my mind and unconscious being HAD ME STUCK and I could not move.
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN IM GOING TO GET MORE!
Who is this man on stage talking to me and to us BUT TO MY EROTICNESS THE MOST because it’s the ONLY THING THAT COUNTS, me that I am concerned about? Yep YOU ….BABY… CAN NOT BE TOUCHED! You are off ground, OFF LIMITS, with a DO NOT ENTER sign ALL OVER YOU. WHY?
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN I HAVE LET HIM GO!
“SPRUNG” is not an option because YES I would be that little girl playing in your grown man’s world ALLOWING you to wrap those legs and beat that thang and TURN ME OUT…THEN RUNNING BACK FOR MORE.. BUT I CANT. I’M AFRAID AND HAVE FEAR! Who are you? Cursed for me on both sides because if I entertain it… IN MY MIND… of course.. WILL I be disappointed because of FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL then mad as hell because THIS ISA GROWN ASS WOMAN OVER HERYA and I was played with, toyed with.. go play with those little girls over there… ness; fooled because I took the hype and bit the apple like you did wearing a suit when you really wanted jeans.
Or… could you be that real thang talking real stuff, mentally deep, emotionally explicitly arousing all the erogenous, aphrodisiac zones and creating new layers of highness…FOR A MOMENT …BUT THEN.. ITS GONE… AND IM THIRSTY FOR MORE?
Nope! THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! Nope! THAT COULD NEVER HAPPEN!
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN I NEED TO WAKE UP!
I AM CONFUSED, IN A BEWILDERED QUARRY STATE OF MIND, DISCOMBOBULATED, OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE, YET..DAMN I HAVE TO WAKE UP!
WHO ARE YOU… see I don’t like fluff fluff interviews so I choose not to interview talent. My interviews are deep and thought provoking. But had I interviewed this man in front of me THIS CASE WOULD HAVE BEEN CLOSED. IN FACT, THERE WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN A CASE. You see, I would ask you:
- · When did Theo leave and Malcolm emerge?
- · The words you speak of erotic tales are they real for many to explore widening your story tales or special, meaningful episodes with THAT ONE?
- · Who stimulates you, your mind… where are they.. THAT one that makes you say wow.. man.. damn.. she keeps me high and craving more!
See, you seem complacent or bored, or something. I know as you say you have accomplished the things in lyfe that you have went after and being a successful child star with net worths in bank, panties thrown at you daily so even thatbecomes a bore… where is your mojo? As you say the only thing stopping you is you and I TRULY UNDERSTAND ….. because, I TOO am bored with levels, and mediocrities and being bored and stifled is deadly. Your voice gets choked and juices are smothered and lyfe is not fulfilling. Perhaps IT IS HERE that I vibed with you! I have been strangled and paralyzed to even want to be creative UNTIL LAST NIGHT.
WHO ARE YOU? A great man; yet still a man! A man modeled from youth and trained to perfection… yet still a man. A man that is intellectually and emotionally capable of moving a society into blissful places with paths of many to choose but just have to choose.
Malcolm-Jamal Warner find your mojo; the world is waiting to BE INSPIRED for your purpose and greatness has YET TO BE SEEN. Your universal awakening of thought provoking projects is sitting in the dust covered and hidden until YOU and ONLY YOU blow lyfe into them
IT’S MALCOLM PART II so baby STAND UP, STAND UP… and DO IT!
You have empowered me through some type of sexual stimulation but I DON’T CARE how it came.. it came. Nope.. I canNOT hang with you in fact when I see you again I canNOT hug you but will say hello… Your vibe is too strong and I will be overtaken by deployed weaknesses. Yep.. I love thinking deep emotional stand strong men and you are the first and years that moved me to confusion. So I thank you FOR AN INTIMATE NIGHT WITH YOU even if it was with me myself and I; for my selfish nasty freaky thoughts; for my vulnerability to see OR to think that others really see me; that its ok to be revealed… JUST BE ME ALWAYS.
Grow who you are, that little boy??? Theo?…. who is that man???…. NOPE… A GROWN UP MAN… MALCOLM-JAMAL WARNER!